Just the way I am

There was once, where I felt I was betrayed by my best friend. (Though it happened about few months ago, but still can't get over it.) my best friend, she ignored me totally, just to get together with the guy that she liked. Can you imagine, how hurt I was? The memories that we made together.. They were left there just because of a guy, who have had his girlfriend. I seriously don't understand why would she had done this to me.

Ok, so go back to the story. I ignored her in college whenever I saw her in college, though my friends were talking to her, but I never look into her eyes, and totally ignored her, not even talked a single word. Here comes a sampat person, who always say that he cares about his friends, and he actually like that girl. So whenever she did, he will just stay at her side. And he came to me, just to persuade me to accept her and back to friends like the older days. But what had done is done. I really dot need this kind of FRIENDS. So I said, I won't forgive her that easy.

However, after days, I really not really well because of this kind of situation, its really awkward. Since her birthday was coming, so I joined her birthday celebration (its actually because Wei Yee, Eddie and suet Mun were going =_=). I actually didn't talk to her that day, not even have a chance to do so. Because we were in the karaoke room, she just went out with her friends for lunch, so I was like.. Really don't like this kind of attitude.

The other day, which was her birthday, I think it's on Wednesday, we planned to have a lunch, super normal lunch. BUT! Because of a guy who admired her, so we need to have lunch at secret recipe, and pay more, for a big cake, which we actually were full and didn't need the cake to be exist. Ok, I was really angry with him. And the whole day, I showed my attitude to him, so he was really angry with me, because he didn't know what's going on. =_= but I don't care~ haha LOL

I remembered that I told him about her, because I was really upset and disappointed with her, cause i guess she found a new best friend, so she didn't need me and she abandoned me. :( how sad was that huh?! And do you know what did he say?! He said, crystal is a nice good person, which indicated that, I'm bad, I'm not good, I'm not a good friend. It was really hurt enough. I don't understand this kin of friendship.
I thought friendship is a thing which give you support and makes you happy, but these things that happened around me proved this wrong.

I seriously miss my jimui. :( I don't like the so called friends.

However, life goes on. But I won't change anything in myself, because this is the real me. What I don't like, I won't like it, because majority like it. I don't like because I don't like. I angry because you made me angry. That's all. And I will treat you the same way you treated me.

Oh ya, one more thing, I'm not a good friend, I'm not good temper, not caring and I like to attack people using words. So if you don't like, just leave. Cause I don't like you too. Just go on and find another friend. I don't care, because you never go into my true heart.

I miss cochrane lol. No, should be, I miss life in cochrane, though it was tough and tired, but I was really happy at that time. To my jimui, I know you guys will read this haha (perasan), I really glad to know all of you ;) thank you for everything :')